I haven't written in ages. I feel the need to write. I've been reading a little, and it makes me want to write. Life is so precious. I am a grandfather now. I can feel the sanctity of life beating so loudly in the heart of my grandson, Brooks. He is seven now. He is totally immersed in his own creation. As his soul takes root in reality; so too, does it grow in my heart. I am presently rereading Toole's Confederacy of Dunces. It is so good. I like to read good literature. I feel his suicide was so tragic. I am sixty-eight now. I think some times of loosing my life and passing away.
I still have a job as a Librarian I. Life would be very hard financially, I fear, if I were to try retiring now. Brooks is in first grade. He may need to repeat next year. Poor baby. I love him so. I wish I could make his life perfect for him; it would also be nice to make mine better for myself. I live alone. At night when I periodically awaken from my slumbers while still dreary from sleep, I'll see and hear Brooks talking to me. Then I will realize it is all illusion. Sometimes I see and hear my son Charlie as well. Charlie is Brooks's father and my namesake.